Dont you think so??

Why is it that the more I know about science the more I don't believe that there is a heaven?? Is it because my knowledge of cells?? Or the multi cellular structure of an atom?? Or the composition of an organ??

I don't want to wake up one day knowing that if I die I remain under the soil as fertilizer, I want to know that there would be a place called heaven... Is heaven also a place created to prevent people from being evil???

I wonder... People say that when we die our life flashes through our eyes.... So if you logically think about it don't you think that if our whole lives was flashing by then is the life that we are living right now another repeat of what has happened before??? Can you understand the logic of what I'm saying??? Like for example we die and our brain just repeats all these several events that has happened before?? Isn't that scary?? It's just a crazy logic which I have made to possibly be true or not true...

Do you think there would be a place called heaven?? Or even a soul??? If you scientifically look at it... When we die.... We die.... We can't possibly go to heaven unless... Someone in the future would invent a device to regenerate our DNA and when we come back from the dead we would awake in the future....

Just a crazy logic....

Maybe

I've tried all the techniques that were possible.... I've kept all my doubts and fears inside for so long.... I don't know what else to do...


And now... Maybe... Just maybe... My new plan might work... I used a voodoo doll as a medium and I tried to do a cleansing spell... Hopefully it could help clarify somethings up and hopefully this could prevent what had happened on the night of the May 25 2008 incident.... Just hopefully this could be his other chance...

Jappy's Night Time Prayer

Lord,

Thank you for this day... Thank you for everything that you have given to me....

Lord I pray that you guide me throughout the whole night.... I pray that you keep my mother, father and my friends safe... I pray that you also give wisdom to those who don't have it...

Lord I pray that the event which happened on May 25 2008 does not ever happen again... If there is no other way... Lord I pray that you take away my life.... If there is no other way you cant stop it... I beg you to take away my life... I can't stand seeing my mother like that... Lord if there is no other way... If you cant change the way he is... I beg you.. Please lord take away my life....

Amen